Monday, August 31, 2009

Cool photo of Weezer's setlist from V-Fest yesterday

Mercer's Lyrics of Sentiment

This is way beyond my remote concern
Of being condescending

Before we take this ride and let it slide
Into the cracks where fall and winter collide.
I surrender all my gall in a song of modern love.
Remember you're the one who summoned me above any other kind

As someone sets light to the first fire of autumn
We settle down to cut ourselves apart.
Cough and twitch from the news on your face
And some foreign candle burning in your eyes

Held to the past too aware of the pending
Chill as the dawn breaks and finds us up for sale.
Enter the fog another low road descending
Away from the cold lust, you house and summertime.

This rather simple epitaph can save your hide your falling mind
Fate isn't what we're up against there's no design no flaws to find
There's no design no flaws to find.

But I learned fast how to keep my head up 'cause I
Know I got this side of me that
Wants to grab the yoke from the pilot and just
Fly the whole mess into the sea.

After all these implements and text designed by intellects
So vexed to find evidently there's just so much that hides
And though the saints dub us divine in ancient fading lines
Their sentiment is just as hard to pluck from the vine

I was driving to work the other morning listening to The Shins. I had my windows down, sipping some coffee, and enjoying the cool breeze as I make my way down the highway. It struck me like so many times before that James Mercer writes some amazing lyrics. You can't quite grasp them until you have them in front of you either. I put a mish mosh of some great sets of lyrics from different songs. I don't know about you but as I start to listen to songs and the lyrics, I really start to analyze them and bring meaning out of them and into my life. I think about where they were in mind and heart when they wrote the songs and what it means to me. I really like to think and talk about lyrics and how music can effect you and me. The Shins do this very well.

One of my favorite Shins' songs is The Past and Pending for many different reasons. This song is not like any other Shins' song. It's not, it's just not. It has a different that is both clean and also mucky at the same time. It reminds me of a Fall evening with my windows open and cool air taking over me and that clean crisp autumn smell. The french horn at the end just brings it to another level.

I'll never forget when my roommate Steve gave me this record when I was a sophomore in college. That's where all of these memories stem from. It was Fall semester and he gave me Oh, Inverted World and said here you might like this, but it's kind of emo. O M G I fell absolutely in love with it. I'd never heard anything like it before. It stands as one of my favorite albums of newer bands. Shit of all time. Yeah I said it.

Beautiful Monday

Right now I am enjoying a tasty dinner prepared by yours truly on the deck outside of my room. It is so amazing outside at the moment, I can't even begin to describe how much life it is filling me with right now. It is a feeling that I get around this time of year when the first cool air starts hitting my skin. It fills me with so much joy. As I briefly mentioned last night I am turning a new leaf this week. I am going to really watch what foods I eat and treat my body right. For dinner tonight (that I am enjoying so much right now outside) is some bow-tie pasta with sauteed mushrooms, bell peppers, zuchini, squash, carrots, garlic, and some olive oil. I finished the dish off with chopped scallions, crushed red pepper, and some freshly grated Parmesean Reggiano cheese. Check it out:

I'm drinking water; no alcohol or meat this week. Who knows maybe I'll like it so much I'll keep doing it for a bit. I would also like to start exercising more too. I might go for a bike ride after I finish dinner. Yesterday at the music festival I found the most amazing hoodie (sweatshirt) at an organic cotton clothing stand. They call it the "cadillac" because it's the only one of it's kind, and it's that amazing. It's dark green with a tree on the left front as well as trees on the bottom back of it. It's lined with wool, made out of the softest organic cotton, has thumb holes in the sleeves, and an iPod pocket (there's a pocket with a hole that leads to the inside of the hoodie so you can string your headphones up through the sweatshirt).

Here are some photos from the festival yesterday.

Looking out into the crowd towards the main pavilion stage

The Rave/Dance stage

Crazy guy on the Busker Stage


Alright well my computer or the internet is being stupid and doesn't want to upload anymore pictures right now so I'll just talk. I have some photos from going out to dinner with my sisters and friends Saturday night at a place by the park called Three. It was a nice place but the main chefs were out of town and it seemed to turn the whole place upside down because it took a long time to get the food, there was a limited menu, and the service wasn't great either. On another note I got a part time job bartending/serving at a local pub/cafe a few nights a week. I'm pretty excited and nervous and I start Wednesday night after work. It's been a while so that's why I'm nervous; and it's always awkward starting a new job and everything. It should be fun though you know? It'll be great to be out and meet new people and socialize and stuff. Oh and make some money on the side too because obv my salary isn't enough, haha.

This weekend is Labor Day and that means a three day weekend!! I'll be working Saturday afternoon and then possibly going to Philly? Well it's 8:12pm and I'm going to go inside and clean up the kitchen from dinner.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Festival of Virgins

Hello world,

I have so much to say, so much to say, so much to say now but it's Sunday night and I'm getting ready to get into bed. I just wanted to say hey and let you know that I have a bunch of pictures to show you from the weekend and beyond and things to talk about. I also changed around the formatting of the blog this weekend, what do you think? I'm still working on all the formatting and the top banner and everything but I'm going for a simplistic look that gives more emphasis on the pictures and words than anything else. With it like this it allows the margins to be bigger, to have larger photos, and more room for talk. I like it, or at least I'm working on the code to make it how I want it. I found this really cool site here and they have given me much inspiration over the last few days on the forefront of blog style, digital photographs, life, etc. I want a digital SLR now because of this site. I'll talk more with you later about it but just wanted to FYI.

I spent the day at Virgin Music Festival at Merriweather Post Pavilion watching all kinds of bands and being cool with lots of people. It was a really great time and I took a bunch of pics which I will show you soon. I will go into more deats lata too. I think I might go on an all veggie diet for the week, and not drink; but that's what I say now and next thing I know I'm eating a burger and having a beer and then I'm fucked. It happens. But I'm going to watch an episode of mash and hit the hay for work early in the a.m.

Hope you had a good weekend and have a great week.


Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Wed August 26, 2009

It's 8:28pm on Wednesday August 26, 2009. I am sitting on my roof top with headphones in my ears and my entire iTunes on random. I'm looking at the skyline of downtown Baltimore and also the crescent moon ducking in and out behind the passing clouds. It's mildly warm with a nice breeze going through and it's a pretty pleasant evening at the moment. I don't come up here nearly enough, at least with my laptop and a set of headphones. I also don't listen to my entire iTunes on random enough. I have so much music that I haven't really listened to enough, or at all really. A Ben Harper song just came on now and you know what? I like it and don't really remember listening to it before.

Time is just going by so quickly and all I find myself being concerned about is getting up for work the next morning and making it to the weekend. I feel so out of touch with things like family, friends, and what I'm actually doing with myself, or to myself sometimes. I don't know habits and schedules and repetitiveness take hold and you find yourself a slave to them sometimes. Sometimes I want to break out of all of it and do something different. Change it all. But then I find that I tried that once and didn't quite work out as planned so I have to keep a solid head on me sometimes too. A strange feeling the other morning was going in to work having been out for a long weekend and I walked into there not knowing or understanding what I was doing. It took me quite a few hours till I got back into the rhythm of the place and what my role was. Why are we doing the things we are doing now? I don't know. Where will it lead and is that what I want to be doing?

Today for a work mentor assignment I had to write down some short term and long term goals as well as specific information around them. It was really difficult. I've never really been one to establish goals and especially write them down and dwell on them. I honestly had a difficult time figuring out exactly what to say. I've always been one of those people that are in the now and figure things out as they come. That doesn't mean I'm not goal oriented or strive for something more. It's actually quite the opposite. Each day I'm always working for something better and positioning myself to get it. I just don't know exactly what I want to be doing or where I want to be to create a long term plan or goal or anything. My goal is to have more responsibility doing something I enjoy and being compensated appropriately. Oh and in the location that I want to be too, how could I forget that part?

I was driving to work this morning listening to The Shins first album and man the last song
The Past and Pending is such an amazing track. It reminded me of an autumn night with the sun setting and a gorgeous sunset lighting up the sky with that crisp smell in the air. I feel like I have vivid memories of walking to campus with my iPod in my ears listening to that and My Morning Jacket's It Still Moves album during Fall semester back at school. How those memories fill me with a vigor and excitement that is extremely hard to describe. I wish I really could but I'm not even going to try because it means so much that I don't want anyone else to have it.

I'm starting to break a sweat up here so it must be a little more humid than I thought or this leaning over my macbook and mind and finger exercise is pretty intensive. It's now 8:53pm on August 26th and I'm 24 years old. Jimi Hendrix's Spanish Castle Magic just came on and helloooo Jimi. I haven't been at home in a long time and feel very far removed from that a lot too. I don't know all family seems to be quite distant at the moment and I don't want to say my concern for the matter isn't there but maybe I'm being selfish with worrying about my own concerns and dealing with being alive and living my own life and keeping that afloat. There was a funny e-mail going around a few days ago that I received and had a lot of every day thoughts that someone jotted down. It's pretty hilarious actually if you haven't seen it. Anyway most of them you'll agree with and thought you were the only one thinking of them. But one of them said "I can't remember the last time that I wasn't at least a little tired", and I sat back and laughed a little and had to agree with it. Damnn am I getting old? I mean that's what happens when you enter the working world right? Or is that just a sign of getting older?

I mean I'm only 24. I've got a lot ahead of me. Sure I like to nap but I don't really get to do it anymore now that I'm working. I usually push myself through the week and then find I'm pushing myself all through the weekend as well and then the process repeats. The more and more you do it the more difficult it will be to make a change. I have many more cityscapes to see and skylines to view from my roofdecks.

How about I just keep that as my goal and anyone who asks you you can just tell them that.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Don't Forget to Dream

Sometimes I've believed as many as
six impossible things before breakfast.

Lewis Carroll

Reduce Reuse

Bender & Previous Recap

It's back to reality and my real life. I survived the weekend and live to tell about, show some polaroids I took, and reminisce with my friends. I am now trying to get back into my working life and gearing up for a new adventure coming up in the beginning of next year (more about that later). But on to some old things, some new things, explanations, and thoughts of my own. Before I go into all of that it's 8:14pm on Tuesday night and I still have not eaten dinner. I've been watching No Reservations with Anthony Bourdain and creating polaroid pictures. I'm not sure what I'm going to eat yet but I'm going to take care of that now and then come back to writing to you...

OK so I'm defrosting some ground chicken at the moment (to make chicken taco meat and going to make a burrito) so I figured I'd chat for a little bit. The one picture above is an Excel spreadsheet my buddy Travis through together Saturday afternoon when we were trying to decide whether to just buy a few 30 racks or a 1/4 keg. I know I know what you're thinking - what savvy business students (haha that's not what you're thinking). But in the end we figured out that it costs $13.29 more to have an equivalent amount of beer from a few cases. So we got a keg of Budweiser and went on a trip to find a keg tub (which turned out to be a lot more difficult than we had expected) because the beer distrib didn't give out tubs. So there we are on the tub chase with our baby in the back seat starting to sweat. Meanwhile Rich is calling me on the phone saying they had been dropped off downtown from the bus and we still needed to ice down our baby! Anyway chickens ready gotta go cook and will continue in a lil bit...

So the chicken is cooking so I'll write a bit now. Ummm the one polaroid is of the Sip & Bite which is a Baltimore landmark 24/7 diner. I went with my friend Casey and got some bangin' breakfast. She came up with a good idea and that is I should use my blog to take pictures and write about places I go out to eat. I know it's kind of a cliched blogging subject but it won't be my soul blogging purpose obviously - it'll just be a little thing I do here and there because I know restaurants and like to cook so much. So that was the sip n bite, I also went to a Lebanese restaurant last week but sorry I didn't take any pictures while I was there.

A few of my friends from NYC came down this past weekend, Brandon flew in from Boston, and Travis came from PA. We had an absolute blast and I'm glad I survived and am back to my real world. Haha I know that that sounds funny but it's true. Like I said I live to tell another day and look forward to seeing them again soon. Once I catch up on some funds I am really looking forward to seeing more of them and possibly taking a trip somewhere with Brandon soon. I ate a lot of great food this weekend, had some tasty brews, and laughed A LOT.

So my big news is that from February 2nd through April 20th of 2010 I will be living in Houston, Texas working at our corporate headquarters going through our solutions bootcamp. I am so so excited and it is a great opportunity. It's extremely exciting and I am very proud to be given the responsibility to go and very happy about myself in positioning my way into a go-to person. More to come about this but just wanted to let you know!

I gotta go check on my simmering taco meat but I will post this now and talk to you later!

PS I am very excited about the turn of the new season into Fall :)

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Food for Thought

Having been in the working world for a few years and been in many different social situations throughout my life so far I've learned something that has recently sunken in for me. There are many different ways how people form opinions of you and it's important to keep all of them in mind. There is one in particular that I've noticed lately that has been bugging me in other people. This is something that I am guilty of just as anyone else but it's kind of important to think about who you are talking to before you open your mouth. What I speak of is talking about other people behind their backs to coworkers, friends, etc. I've noticed an absorbent amount of people badmouthing about other people right to my face or in front of many individuals. This is a normal practice because we're all human with different personalities and of course, it's a fact, we're not all going to get along with everyone we work with, are friends with, or acquaintances with. But it's important to be smart and mature about how you go about doing it. A lot of the behavior I've been around over the past few months and few years have definitely not been thought through and taken into account.

I personally am trying to make it a goal for myself to not do this at all around coworkers and limit myself as to the individuals I may disclose personal opinions about. It can tarnish your reputation or relationship with other people if you don't think about what you are doing. It can effect so many different things that you may not even think about. Think about the relationships that you may establish or ruin because of opening your mouth or, on the contrary, not being nice to. Say one day you are manager of that department or a department that has individuals that you never even gave a second glance to or never bothered to acknowledge because you either thought you were too good for them or couldn't relate to them. It makes a huge impact and I respect those people that don't take part in the bashing of others. It's an incredibly difficult thing to adhere to and at times you may slip. But to even think about these things and actually change your actions prior to social situations or decisions, I think, brings you ahead of a lot of people out there. So many different people don't even think about things like that. It's so important and being on top of your game in that respect can go very far.

Go out of your way to talk to someone at work that you don't normally talk to. Ask them questions about themselves, how their weekend was, what work their doing, what they like and what their hobbies are. It can go much further than what you think. Not only that but they will have your back when someone may be talking to them about you. Who knows when your direct manager will be talking to them about this or that and they might slip in a good word about you. It all comes full circle and that relates to my opinions on karma and just being a nice person. Along with that come my policies on honesty and respect. If you are honest with those around you and give respect to others then they will do the same for you. If you go around burning bridges and not giving others respect then it will come back to you sooner or later. Probably sooner than later anyway. So if this is something that you've never really taken into consideration then I definitely would suggest at least thinking about these things the next time you are at work or in social situations. It can have a huge impact on where you are going by establishing trusting relationships and being open about things.

This kind of goes along with how I try to live my life on a daily basis. Like all of us, sometimes it's difficult. I have trouble just like anyone else trying to work with certain people but as long as you keep these things in the back of your mind then you are probably ahead of many of the other people you work with. Along with all of this stuff is things like coming in early, staying late, saying hi and being nice to people when you see them. All of these things form other people's opinions about you and some day they will work on your behalf. Always do what people ask of you and never give anyone a hard time. At least in a position like I'm in all of this will help you in the future.

So many times I've been in conversations where people just talk about themselves. Sidebar: all people like to talk about themselves. If you are in a conversation with someone you should be conscience about how much you talk about yourself and engage yourself in asking the other person questions about themselves. Like I said people love to talk about themselves so if you ask a lot of questions about what they're interested in I guarantee coming out of that conversation they will like you. They probably won't even know why they like you but it's because you took an interest in what they're interested in and that's why they like you.

So do it. Start a conversation with someone that you've never talked to before. Take an interest in what they like. Maybe even go as far as to do a little research into something your manager may like to do that you know nothing about and then strike up a conversation with them. I guarantee it will work on your behalf and make you look favorable in their eyes.

And that's the most important thing for us isn't it?

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Marching Bands of Manhattan

If I could open my arms
And span the length of the isle of Manhattan,
I'd bring it to where you are
Making a lake of the East River and Hudson
If I could open my mouth
Wide enough for a marching band to march out
They would make your name sing
And bend through alleys and bounce off all the buildings.

I wish we could open our eyes
To see in all directions at the same time
Oh what a beautiful view
If you were never aware of what was around you
And it is true what you said
That I live like a hermit in my own head
But when the sun shines again
I'll pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in.

Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole
Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound
But while you debate half empty or half full
It slowly rises, your love is gonna drown

Your love is gonna drown
Your love is gonna...

-"Marching Bands of Manhattan"
Death Cab For Cutie

View out of My Hotel Room

Middle of August Already!?

For those of you out there that have known me for a while this car should look familiar. Even fewer of you out there have some pleasant memories of Rock Hollow Road adventures in this car, or at least the same model car. Rides in the woods with the top down, iPod turned up, windows down, and care free adventure full. Anyway I saw this car at the grocery store a few weeks ago and it made my heart flutter a little bit. I stood there and looked at it for a little bit and noticed the side panels and this car was missing some of them too! Hahaha that happened to my car too. I guess it was a design flaw of that year's model. As much as that car gave me problems I really loved it.

I successfully went to Houston, Texas and back. Some of those pictures are from a Houston Astros game that we went to. The National meeting in Texas went really well and I learned so much. I met so many new people that are in the program I'm in and I had a great time. I'm feeling really good about what I'm doing and I think I'm on the right track to be successful in whatever area I go into. The next few years will be a lot of hard work, long hours, and not the greatest salary but I think it should pay off in the long run. I'm really excited about some of the things I'm doing at my company. I've been doing a lot of design work and am basically re-branding our newly merged company. I'm designing a completely new website, new marketing materials, and new logo. I've come up with some new colors too.

I can't believe it's the middle of August already. I've been looking forward to Fall and all the things that come along with it. It is definitely my favorite season and I've noticed a few things that remind me of Fall lately. Those bugs that make a lot of noise started churping outside the other night. The smell of the air changes and the air turns crisp. I don't know what it is but I just really love the feeling in the air of Fall. Man I was thinking about that feeling of Fall after coming back to college from being away for the summer. Hanging out with all of your friends that you haven't seen in a while, walking home from class in the crisp night fall air with headphones in looking forward to hanging out on my porch, in my room with the windows open, listening to music, partying with my friends. God I miss those days. The thought of it fills me with a combination of excitement, sadness, and a way of replacing or finding new things to create new Fall memories.

Between my work trip to Houston, working late at work, and taking care of business around home keeping up with things I haven't had that much of a chance to write on here. I haven't really known what to say or what to write. There are so many things I think about all the time and I wish I could get it all down on here a lot easier. Like the other day at work I just became insanely dissapointed in nearly everyone who works there. The people are so selfish and only think about themselves, they don't think about what they say and have no morals or forethought before they say or do things. Sometimes I'm continually surprised at how stupid people are. Or how they are not able to take a step back and think about things from a more mature point of view. They only think about themselves and not what it might do to other people. One of the other managers told me that the workers there have some kind of thing in their head that there is a huge wall between "the managers" and "the workers" and that their mindset is that we work for corporate and they need to separate themselves from that or something. But the truth is we're all in it together at that company. You know? We're trying to get the numbers to work out right in the financial statements and that's us doing that. In that company. I don't know it just pisses me off sometimes when you go out of your way to do something nice for people and they don't show any gratitude and only offer criticism and selfishness. Why bother then? I just don't understand what people are thinking sometimes. And that really dissapoints me.

We went to a Lebanese restaurant last night. It was pretty good; interesting. I don't know if I've ever eaten at one before. We went out for Sue's birthday which was nice. I've been exhausted from the last week and a half so it's really nice right now to be just hanging out at the house on a Saturday afternoon. I need to get some food in me soon but not sure what. I've been looking forward to going back to the Golden West Cafe which is in Hampden. That place is the shit. Oh next weekend is going to be the shit too. My best friend is coming to visit and I think a bunch of other old friends from different places are all making appearances as well. It's going to be sooo much fun! OH also I have off Friday and Monday of next week so a 4-day weekend will be amazing. I haven't done that yet since I've been working so it will be a nice break from the last few weeks.

I'm going to take a break from typing on here because this has been more blogging than I've done in a while! I would like to get back on here more often to share more things, I just gotta remember to take pictures, or just remember what it is I want to say and force myself to do it.


Monday, August 3, 2009