Tuesday, December 29, 2009

...Said, said,
Said I remember when we used to sit
In the government yard in Trenchtown
Oba, ob-serving the hypocrites
As they would mingle with the good people we meet
Good friends we have had, oh good friends we've lost along the way
In this bright future you can't forget your past
So dry your tears I say

No woman, no cry
Oh my Little sister, don't shed no tears
No woman, no cry

Said, said,
said I remember when we used to sit
In the government yard in Trenchtown
And then Georgie would make the fire light
Log wood burnin' through the night
Then we would cook corn meal porridge
Of which I'll share with you

My feet is my only carriage
So I've got to push on through
But while I'm gone...

Everything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright

No woman, no cry
No, no woman, no woman, no cry
Oh, little sister, don't shed no tears
No woman, no cry

No woman, no woman, no woman, no cry
No woman, no cry
Oh, my little darlin' no shed no tears
No woman, no cry, yeah
any sister no shed no tears, no women no cry

Say, say,
said I remember when we used to sit
In a government yard in Trenchtown
Obba, obba, serving the hypocrites
As the would mingle with the good people we meet
Good friends we have, oh, good friends we've lost
Along the way
In this great future,
You can't forget your past
So dry your tears, I say

No woman no cry, no woman no cry
Little darling, don't shed no tears, no woman no cry

Say, say, said I remember when we used to sit
In the government yard in Trenchtown
And then Georgie would make the fire light
As it was, love would burn on through the night
Then we would cook cornmeal porridge
Of which I'll share with you
My fear is my only courage
So I've got to push on thru
Oh, while I'm gone

Everything 's gonna be alright, everything 's gonna be alright
Everything 's gonna be alright, everything 's gonna be alright
Everything 's gonna be alright, everything 's gonna be alright
Everything 's gonna be alright, everything 's gonna be alright...

Monday, December 28, 2009

Down Is The New Up

Magnolia, Magnolia... let me rest under the shade of your leaves.

I just threw on the latest album from The Black Crowes, Before The Frost/Until The Freeze, and it's really good. I haven't listened to the whole thing yet I don't think, but it's really good stuff...not to mention it's a double album, which is always a good indication of something great [white album, stadium arcadium, melancholy and the infinite sadness, cold roses] just to name a few. It's the lull week between the holiday season and we're all back to work; at least most of us are.

It's really cold out and it's mostly the wind that really makes it bitter. But you know, the weather doesn't have a huge effect on me like it used to. I go from the house, to the car, to the office, and back again. I don't have that daily interaction, cohesion with my fellow city dwellers and environment. I sit in my bubble that is my car and transport myself to and fro... I miss that closeness with strangers around me. I've been thinking about New York a lot lately and especially this time of year last year. I used to walk everywhere, take the subway everywhere, always listening to my iPod on my iPhone and walking down the street with my music creating the soundtrack of my life. Being able to take so many things in - all the buildings, people, hustle and bustle around me. I always felt comfort in it all and being a part of it made me feel better about myself. There was this energy I used to absorb and I would use it to invigorate my life. We had a really great energy between us friends too - right off the Lorimer stop; oh man there were some great times. I look back fondly and look for little pieces now that can give me some of the feelings I got back then in Brooklyn.

This city is definitely different. Most people are in cars. There's less of a public transport vibe and everything is spread and grouped by different neighborhoods. I feel like there is less of a cohesion of the inhabitants that know they are part of something great - that they're all in it together. I feel like people are more into themselves and have less interactiveness between each other. It's missing that energy - that thing you can feel. I wish there was more of a public transportation system that could get you around to all the different areas quickly, safely, cheaply, and conveniently. Like a Subway. But alas, it is the way it is.

On another note I'm going to get a chance to experience the vibes of a new city... Houston. Of the brief time I've spent there previously and what I've heard from others is that it's a very spread out city. Once again I will have my car so we'll see what it's really like. The time has gone by really quickly and my departure is only a few weeks away. I believe my last day here at work will be Friday, January 22 and I will leave on the road trip shortly thereafter. I am hopefully going to be subletting my room while away so I can put all that would be rent money towards my debts. Speaking of debts I'm proud to say (but dissapointed at the same time...) that I am taking all my xmas money, earned money from the bar, and everything and putting it towards my credit card debt instead of a camera. It's the most responsible thing to do and will ultimately get me closer to where I want to be than if I would do something else. It's these times and decisions that make the extra leap in life and it's being smart enough to realize that that is important.

I am going to do my best to save, spend lightly, eat better, and just be better. There are improvements that I would like to make, some changes that I would like to occur in my life, and some I have control over and others I don't. I can only be myself and continue to do my best.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Up Against a Wall

Guess I should have caught your call
But I just had to waste the phone forget it all
Bones are trembling hands are cold
You don't know how it feels you've got me up against the wall

Maybe we could make this work
But now you start to leave before it's getting worse
I don't know what you came here for
It's almost that I wish we hadn't met at all

You slap just like a wake-up call
The bruises on the face don't bother me at all
Bones are trembling hands are cold
It's almost that I wish you had me up against the wall

One of my go to albums that has reached that status over the last year or two is PB&J's Writer's Block.
And in that album the song Up Against The Wall has definitely become one of my favorites on the album. It has such a great sound to it and just builds up really nicely. Most of the lyrics are you know, okay for the most part. But honestly, the lyrics that really catch my ear in this song is the phrase "sometimes I wish we hadn't met at all". Have you ever felt this way? I feel like this is something we've all thought at one point or another but, it's such a bold thing to say.... or think. Do you really mean it? Or are you just temporarily blinded because of a certain situation that you might be in. I'm not really talking about anything specific situation for me right now or anything, I'm talking in generalities. You probably don't really mean it, but you think about it. And then you start thinking about what life or things might be like if you hadn't ever met that person at all. What kind of person would I be? Would I still think the same way or have the same understanding or maturity that I do now that we've gone through everything? I don't know, that's the most interesting part about the whole thing. I don't think you'd ever really want to completely erase something. I guess I am under the understanding that whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger... and smarter. It helps to mold your understanding and what you look for in people and what you really want.

I stopped at Best Buy today after work on my way home with the intentions of checking out some cameras that I've been researching online to get a feel for how they work and if I like them. Well, for example, this experience has definitely swayed me to go to a local camera shop rather than a big box store. Most of the cameras that they had out to play with were either broken, didn't have any batteries, the lenses were all messed up with smudges and too much handling, or they just didn't work at all. There was also virtually no support and help from the staff either. At one point I said to the girl, a lot of these cameras don't really work or are broken. She said, yeah a bunch of them don't work... and I was like, well so what, I'm supposed to just buy one and hope it works out okay?? She said, yeah. Hmm I don't think so! You guys suck and I would never buy a camera from you guys. Get some QC'n and a grip on the products you're selling. Maybe DSLR's aren't really their fortay and they make all of their money off of TV's and computers or something. So I decided to walk around and I noticed a music section where they had guitars to play with. I went into the acoustic room to sit down with one and give it some loving but as is the story of my life, no left-handed instruments. Soooo overall bad experience at Best Buy so I just walked out and went home. Definitely a disappointment when you're hoping to get something accomplished or have some expectations but, you live and learn.

It's Thursday evening and we've almost made it through another work week. It's the 10th of December already and we're fast approaching x-mas and the new year! I can't believe it... it's just one week after the other and continuing to plug away, wear the right hat when you need to, and keep on keeping on. I'm meeting up with a buddy in a little bit at Brewer's Art in the city but right now I'm listening to OK Computer in vinyl and chilling in my room. I have some xmas lights around my big mirror and I strung a section on my head board of my bed too. I have a balsam and cedar candle burning so it smells a little festive for the season. Work has been fine, just focusing on myself and what I'm doing with my job and career. Not letting some of the other distractions that were once a big issue overwhelming my life. I'm starting to get really excited for the next thing and if you haven't looked at the pictures yet of my apartment complex in Houston it looks like it's going to be pretty sick! There's an underground lit up pool, hot tub, and waterfalls and stuff in the middle of the complex with palm trees around it and stuff. I think it should be a pretty kick-ass time and I welcome these new things into my life.

It is 7:20pm and I am meeting him at 8pm downtown. I'm home alone and should probably eat some food before I head out the door. I don't know what we have in the fridge but probably left-overs to be eaten (yah!). I had peking duck for the first time earlier this week and it was pretty slammin'. Well I'm going to go find something to eat real quick and then head downtown.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Life's too short for what if's and plans
So let the day take you by the hand
Get your filofax we'll go and burn them
But I'm too old for 'damn the man'

I make a wish on a star at night
The brightest star that's in the sky
Only to have realized
That it was just a satellite

we have made it to another December and already! It has had its ups and downs but we're all still in this crazy place. I can't believe it's December 8th already.... everything this year has been leading up to this past weekend and I don't it let anyone down. Congratulations to my sister and her new husband on their nuptials!! It was a perfect day and went off without a hitch; I think everyone had a great time. Now we are all looking forward to moving into the future with new family and new fun and excitement. I'm very happy for them.

I seem to be trucking along with what I'm doing... work and everything has definitely gotten better since the last times I've really talked to you. It's not terrible, it's actually alright right now. I am getting prepared for the next adventure to TX at the end of January, which kicks off with a road trip from Maryland to Texas with my dad!! We still need to sit down and come up with the GP and the route but I assure you it will be cool. I got a lot more info about where i'm staying, etc, check it out here for some pics of the apartment complex where I'll be staying. Ummmm... if you want to come visit me I'll be there from February through the end of April so talk to your local Southwest representative and book your cheap flight to Houston ASAP (the sooner you do it the cheaper it is..). I am really looking forward to the change. Moving to a new step and hopefully seeing a change of well, just everything that has been for the last while.

I can't stop thinking about getting back into photographing. Hopefully within the next month I can start morphing this blog into a show and tell kind of thing. Where I can present my art and photography and morph it with thought and input and daily introspection to create something interesting. I haven't felt much interesting in the last while (notice my # of posts over the past few months and then compare it to January of this year.. I think it was like 80-something!!), but I think I'm getting back to it. While at the wedding I was really interested with talking to the photographers about what they were doing, the cameras they had, their input, etc... and they were both super cool. I don't know, I think it'll open up a lot of avenues that I've closed off lately. I just signed up to work NYE this year at the bar bartending. I don't know, I don't think NYE ever really lives up to what you think it should be and I've kind of changed my mindset to make $$ off of everyone else instead of paying a lot to someone else. I worked last year while in NYC at a big party on 23rd street (remember that? I posted some pics that night or the next morning when I get out and the awesome sandwich I made when I got home at like 4:30am that night..).

It's really quiet around here right now. It starts to get dark while I'm still at the office and this is terribly depressing. I look outside (because I have windows around me at my desk...) and all I see is my stupid grin reflecting back at me, I can't even see outside! It's not even 5 o'clock yet! Well at least I have my music around me. Brandon told me about this website called woot.com that sells one thing a day real cheaply. I really like this site.. sometimes it's stupid and something you don't want but sometimes, and just sometimes it's something that you want or would make a good christmas present and then you can snatch it for real cheap!! Like.... I did that this morning. There is also woot wine but they don't deliver to MD... or PA. Luckily I think this xmas will be relatively light on the wallet. Which is good because I'm not mr. money bags yet and as much as I thought I would be at this point when I was younger, i'm not, haha.

I do have to apologize for not really talking on here much these past few months. Whatever posts I did put was mostly because I felt obligated to and didn't really have much thought behind them. I don't know, I'm still trying to figure it all out, as far as well, everything.. but I'm getting back to a better place and mindset to do it all in. So the website of the photographers from the wedding are located here. Check it out and ummm... when they are posted from my sister's wedding I'll post some on here, I'm super excited to check out what they were able to do. I haven't had an oyster shot in a while, I think that I really want one soon. Maybe tonight. Definitely Friday night I will be. I have an opportunity to go to Atlantic City this weekend but I don't think I'm going.. I definitely do not have the money and well, have been running around the past few weekends so, I think I've talked myself out of it. No money, low resources, a need to chill, blah blah. I'm kind of random right now but I'm kind of just letting it all out... I haven't done that in a while either and it used to be good for me.

OK I've been summoned to move crap around before I go so I gotta go.

ttys PEACE.