Saturday, March 20, 2010



I went to bed last night pretty early, probably about 9:30pm or 10. I put on this new piano album I got by Akira Kosemura that is really soft and relaxing. I woke up a while later to some other music playing (what was after that album on the iTunes list) and realized that the album worked pretty well. Also intermittently there were flurries of text message and phone calls that woke me up as well. I'm sitting at the dining room table with some of the windows open and blinds open; kind of a dreary day - overcast, slightly chilly, perfect day to be spent inside a brewery drinking local, fresh beer and making jokes with friends! Good! Because that's what we're doing this afternoon. I am proud to say that I think my stomach is in OK condition to perform this activity. It has been an uncomfortable last week and a half with this stomach bug that I've had. It sidelined me for a while and gave me a chance to relax and let some of the things that has been happening really cement itself in my head. I'm not going to say that I'm questioning my decision to stay in Houston, because I'm not, but I am saying that I've allowed myself to really think about the situation and what the pros and cons are. What living in the Northeast really means to me, what my life in Baltimore offers me, and then what excitement and opportunities are available here in the Gulf Coast. Of course there are pros and cons to everything. But, as you know me, I am always looking for that new adventure and new people, new places, new experiences. And I think this is it. And you know what? In a few years I could really have moved up in this company. Also, I can drive to California wayyyy quicker from here than Maryland, ever think about that!?

I woke up this morning with a flash of inspiration and life that I always look forward to on Saturday mornings, unless I'm hungover. It's that feeling of being well rested, having spent the previous night relaxing your bones after a long week, doing something for yourself and no one else. The feeling of being able to wake up whenever it is that you actually wake up, and not because you have to. Your body just wakes up and then you know it's time. And the feeling of not having to actually go anywhere or do anything. That is the feeling. So I woke up, brushed my teeth, used the bathroom [TMI?], and threw on the first vinyl of the morning. I went with whatever was in there at the time, because it's always easier to just drop the needle than think about things, and so that happened to be The Ruby Suns new album, which is okay, not as good as the previous two albums. I went to the kitchen and made a pot of real Mexican coffee from Mexico, gladfully given to me by my sister. I don't think gladfully is a word because there is a red line under it but I want to use it anyway. While I was in the kitchen doing this I got that splash of inspiration and instantly went into cooking mode. I figured, lets make a real breakfast like real people do. So I chopped up some potatoes, onion, and garlic and threw that in the oven. And defrosted some sausages. And got T to pick up some eggs. And we have toast. So I think that should be pretty good.

I always like when I have time to sit down and actually write something on here. It makes me feel better about things. I'm looking out the window right now and it's like super dark in the distance.. looks like there is a storm coming. Perfect weather for drinking indoors!! You know sometimes you feel guilty for like, drinking indoors or spending time indoors when its super nice out, but today is not one of those days. Supposedly we are leaving in about thirty minutes but I'm unshowered, still cooking breakfast, and not in that mindset yet... so we'll see. I popped in a record that I haven't listened to in a really long time that seems appropriate right now and that is Norah Jones first album.

Well I need to check on things and start to get my act together.

Tonight we go to the rodeo and act like young professionals in our company's Suite box, giddy-up!!

Bye for now.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Monday, March 15, 2010

The Ides of March


I think the above image is so interesting how it shows the subject within the subject. It throws off your sense of reality for a second and makes you take a step back and think about what is going on. I enjoy things that make you do that. Lately I have been feeling extremely lazy. I caught a stomach bug at the tail end of last week and through the weekend that threw me for a loop. I'm still not one hundred percent. Right now I am just chilling in my room, by myself, with my new Ray Lamontagne vinyl spinning on the turntable (his second album - Till The Sun Turns Black), as you can see pictured above with mwah. It is an excellent record, what can I say? I have his first and third on vinyl and it was only a matter of time before I got this one. Let me tell you, it sounds excellent. But yes, I am really just chilling in my room with the blinds closed down a bit, sheets a ruffled, lights off so only the natural light can illuminate around me, windows slightly open to let fresh air in, shorts and t-shirt on. It's almost 7pm on a Monday night. Kind of a blah Monday, you know? It was not an extremely satisfying day of work.

I've been letting reality sink in a bit. It doesn't really change decision but it has allowed me to connect to those things that are important around me, maybe in places I used to live or closer to home, that are important to me.
Those things are not gone.
They are still there.
They will always be there, I just won't be there right next to them all the time.

That is okay and I am okay with that. I need to take this opportunity as best as I can and make something of it.

I took a nap the other day on a gorgeous sunny afternoon. It was such a nice experience, although I was not feeling very good at the time I still really enjoyed it. I put The Smiths on in the background and let myself sink into the bed around me and fell asleep to the lullaby of amazing 80's British Pop Music... it was really nice. Fortunately I have been getting better and hopefully will be back to one hundred percent soon. I laid by the pool yesterday and read On the Road for a while, it was really nice.

I feel like everything has been a bit blah lately and I'm not sure why. I think a lot of it has to do with just the fact that I've been slightly ill. I also feel like things have been a little stagnant and need some new things to do. Some new projects at work. Some new friends to hang out with. Or some new places to go with my current friends. Unfortunately one of my cohorts here that has grown into a friend will be leaving in a few weeks to go back to his company. Most of us have grown pretty close and that is really awesome. We grilled out by the pool over the weekend and everyone chipped in to help. It's just been one of those weeks I guess... I haven't written on here too much which I must apologize for. Sometimes I find it to be more and more difficult to keep up with it. It's a shame I can't make a blog posting by thought because I swear, I'll be driving down the street or have headphones in and I'll hear a set of lyrics and it'll trigger something in my head that I want to say, or an idea I've had that I want to express, or just something and I want to write about it then and there and I always say to myself, oh well I'll remember and I never really do. And if the page isn't up in my browser or there for me to constantly look at and see that I haven't posted in a while, sometimes I won't do it. Sometimes, a lot of times, it is in the back of my head that I haven't said anything in a while and I'm too damn lazy to do it. Or it's not that I'm lazy, because I actually do want to, but it takes something inside of you to actually do it. It is so much easier not to do it.
You know?

That's not just blog posting but life in general.
Lets try to steer away from that and do the unexpected,
go that pace and do something really cool because I want to see it.

Well I never pray but tonight I'm on my knees
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me
I let the melody shine
let it cleanse my mind
I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

Thursday, March 4, 2010

It's been a very interesting couple of days. I sit in the cove of our kitchen with the porch door open, windows open, Nick Drake vinyl playing on the turntable in my room, kitchen lights on, and a dusk pink and blue sky fading behind the palm trees. I sit alone because my roommate has left for Toronto. I feel as if a much needed time to be alone. Though not for long because a few friends will be coming over in about an hour; bringing a bounty of food / ingredients to cook dinner. I have spent the last hour doing some kitchen prep work for said dinner. Actually, you know what is quite ironic about what I just said? If you remember - my last post I exclaimed how I wanted that experience of being around friends, cooking food for each other for everyone to enjoy, something healthy and wholesome. Well, as it seems to be, I might be quite doing that exact thing tonight.

That is what leads me to some things that are interesting. A lot has happened in the last few days / weeks. I have made many new friends, met several new intriguing ladies, and have felt more on top of my game and good about myself than in a long time. It's almost like all of that hard work is finally paying off and I am grateful. So excited and grateful. It has been a very interesting last year and it has definitely helped to shape who I am and what it is that I am looking for. I am extremely excited for the future and very thankful for those of you in my life. Exciting things are happening and there will be some extreme changes happening in the coming months.

Right now I am downloading a copy of Adobe Illustrator onto my MacBook because the old version I had wore out. I mean, it didn't ware out, but the period of time that I was able to use it was expired. BUT, I am downloading a full version at the moment that should work all the time. I have been really shaking out some of the design capabilities within myself lately and I love it. I wish I had some of the art exhibition viewing opportunities here that are in NYC. I still miss it there but it seems my course has taken me in a different direction that I had predicted. There are still some very important people to me that live in that city and will absolutely get back there as much as I can. I am going to be a jet-setter now ya'll.

Well I'm going to go peel some onions and chop some garlic.

Stay well my friends.